so thanks to ethan... i realized how soon college is. for me college is something my siblings do. yea i've always known i'm "going to go to college" but the actual leaving isn't what i'm gripping. when someone goes to college it means that the house is a little more yours and you have a little more time for yourself and freedom. but going to college myself, holy crap, i'm leaving. oofta. i have up til now refused to shop for college, cuz i don't want to deal with it. gah. packing up my stuff and taking it to the middle of wisconsin to live in a small room with another person, whom i don't know at all. wow. i'm sure i'll enjoy, but i'm just a little freaked out.
anyway... i'm bored. so i'm trying to do things around my room and i realize how much i have to do, but i don't want to do anything cuz it all reverts back to the top subject. *sigh*